Middle-Aged Women

I had to go to the county assessor’s office this week to talk with an assessor about our property values. The lady who answered the telephone was middle-aged, and the lady who set up the appointment for me was also middle-aged. When I arrived, the lady who directed me to the assessor’s office was middle-aged. And the assessor was middle-aged.

The county assessor’s office is newly remodeled, with light spilling in from the outside and a view of one of the county’s oldest man-made landmarks, the old Santa Fe train depot. The office space is relatively open and quite pleasant. As you walk from the entrance to the assessor’s spaces, you get a panoramic view of the entire staff.

Everyone working in the assessor’s office is a middle-aged woman.

So the assessor, Christine, and I started out talking about property values, but ended up talking about family values. Like me, she has a few children in college, a husband who doesn’t remember where things like the wine cork or his black socks are kept, and elderly parents. Her father has been quite ill, and she’s had to juggle her full-time job, her duties and joys at home with her husband and children, her ill father, and her distressed mother. And yet, she was able to give me her full attention and thoughtfully consider the input I brought to our meeting.

The receptionist, Denise, was also a middle-aged woman. Her husband of 30 years had recently left her and taken a trip to the Virgin Islands with his executive secretary. She has two teenagers and a daughter in college. Her daughter, a single mom, relies heavily on Denise for child care after work. I learned this because I had chatted with Denise while Christine was with another county resident who also had a property value problem.

We chatted companionably, these strangers and I, and from time to time I noticed as middle-aged women crossed the office space, went for coffee, answered telephones, used their keyboards, talked with taxpayers, filed forms, and otherwise did the work that keeps our county going. I imagined every woman going home to a husband, a child, aging parents. I imagined how they worked 40 or more hours every week, many times dealing with distressed, worried, irritated, and even irate county residents, and then went home and did the work of wives, mothers, and daughters of elderly parents.

I was amazed at them, really. I’m so grateful for middle-aged women.

Middle-aged women make the world go around. They have borne the babies and toted them on the hip, and they’ve provided the food for their households, and they’ve cooked it. They sort the clothes that are outgrown and they donate them or sell them on eBay or pass them on to friends, co-ops, neighbors, and family members. They clean the house and load the dishwasher, pick up the sock everyone else strolled past all evening long. They listen as their mothers talk with quivering voices of the latest diagnosis, or of how hard it is to live with their now-retired fathers. They plan Easter dinner, Passover dinner, Thanksgiving dinner, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day; they do the shopping. They buy new Easter basket grass and Paas Easter egg dyes every year, and they spend hours at the table with the children, making rainbow hues on old newspaper or wiping it as it spills down the cabinet fronts.

Middle-aged women light the shabbat candles and say the prayers. Middle-aged women sometimes still wear head coverings to mass even though the Vatican said they don’t have to. They do it as a sign of respect for God and Jesus, and they identify with Mary, whose head is always covered and who lost her only child when she was a middle-aged woman.

Middle-aged women are tired. And yet they keep on giving, keep on serving, keep on keeping on with what they do. They are the hearts and souls of their families. Dad may leave, but Mom hangs in there. Mom figures out how to make ends meet, how to get that bill paid, how to afford new clothes or a new washing machine. Mom knows where things are; mom knows what to do; mom is a wife, but also a daughter; she is a vet sometimes, and a nurse; she’s a psychologist and a miracle worker.

Middle-aged women care about other women: little girls, young women, thirty-somethings who know it all, forty-somethings who doubt it all, other middle-aged women who carry it all, and grannies who have endured it all. They care, and they listen when you talk. They are often compassionate; they mother not only their own children, but other women’s children, too.

Middle-aged women tell young women how beautiful they look. They tell the sacker at the grocery store how strong he is, and they flirt unabashedly with charming men because they know they’re well past their prime, but they compensate for it by saying what they really think. Middle-aged women are among the sexiest women in the world.

Middle-aged women can be blunt at times; they can tell you to snap out of it if you need that. They can say that you need to cut the bullshit. They will tell you that your lover or boyfriend or husband is a loser and you deserve better, but they will say it with tears in their eyes and you know they mean it, and that they’re right.

Middle-aged women are beautiful. They’re strong and they’re experienced. They know what to do, so they help people.

Middle-aged women are tired. Their feet hurt when they get home at night, and their ankles swell. Nobody offers them foot rubs or back rubs or even a cup of tea—except, maybe, another middle-aged woman. Or a young woman who is grateful. Or a granny who remembers.

I’m grateful for all the middle-aged women in our county assessor’s office. I’m grateful for the middle-aged women working at the district attorney’s office, and the university, and the bank, the credit union, the grocery store, the dry cleaner. I’m grateful for middle-aged women around the world, women working in factories, women supporting the whole family, women raising their grandchildren, women sitting by the hospital beds, women worrying in bed late at night.

Middle-aged women praying.

Thank you, my middle-aged sisters. Thank you for keeping the families together. Thank you for being wives, mothers, grandmothers, daughters, neighbors, sisters, employees, and friends.

Oh… and thanks for remembering where the wine cork and his black socks are. We are all better off because of you.

10 responses to “Middle-Aged Women”

  1. Sarahsky Avatar

    Thank you – I was net surfing for inspiration and came across this writing. It lifted my spirit and heart. A middle-aged one.

  2. Stargazer Avatar

    This was insipiring to read today. These women are amazing, and deserving of admiration. To be able to guard one’s heart from bitterness, sorrow, and cynism can be so challenging. Keeping a soft heart for others and continuing to love seems a miracle in itself.

  3. renaissanceguy Avatar

    Good job, Eve. How right you are!

  4. Gloria, Writer Reading Avatar

    Middle-aged are tired and keep serving. Middle-aged women are invisible, yet you noticed them all. It’s true we boost all the egos around us. I love this. Publish this one.

  5. doctor/woman Avatar

    Beautiful writing, and as others have said, a good antidote to today’s obsession with youth. Will read it again when I next feel it is a bad thing to get older.

  6. charlotteotter Avatar

    This is a beautiful post, and it brought tears to my eyes. I have been the beneficiary of the kindness, tough love and wisdom of middle-aged women, and will soon BE one. Thank you for showing me that we make the world go round.

  7. joker the lurcher Avatar

    i so needed to read this today. thank you.

    Eve sez:Joker, you are the first dog who has visited my blog, as far as I know. I’m so honored!

    I know of another canine who blogs. His name is Domino and he’s rather dim-witted, being a chihuahua (they have small brains, I understand). I’ll have to direct him to your blog so that he can see how canine blogging ought to be.

    Thanks for visiting!

  8. Alida Avatar

    Goodness Eve,

    You wrote this so beautifully, I almost admitted to being middle-aged! Being offered a cup of tea sounds lovely.

  9. deb Avatar

    This made me cry. It is beautiful and true. Middle aged women have had their hearts broken by the world and yet they still love.

  10. henitsirk Avatar

    Too bad the rest of Western culture can’t get their attention off the latest of the young and beautiful to share your sentiments! I just edited some essays about well-being in various cultures, and several (India, Hong Kong, Australian Aborigines) value social connections among all ages, and particularly honoring and supporting one’s elders. I think we’re missing that very much in our culture.

    Eve replies:
    Anthromama, oh, essays like that sound so interesting. I wish you’d blog about what you’ve learned through them. What I’m curious about is: do these other cultures have similar amounts of well-being as ours? More? Less? Do the social connections among varying ages increase the sense of well-being for all, or only some? And so on.

    I agree that we seem to be missing that in our culture. I don’t know whether this is part of our spiritual heritage, since the country was founded on separation in the first place, or whether it’s geographic (we have such a large country and people move around a lot), or some combination, etc. The whole topic fascinates me.

    And I think too much, no doubt. I’d be better off if I’d return to writing for profit, or would at least put my skills to use and edit something. But, no, I merely think and blog. And discuss things. And nobody will pay me for this.

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